Thursday, March 10, 2011

Me? A blogger!?

This is all new to me~ not sure what I'm doing, let alone what exactly "blogger" means!   I'm an indecisive person, so even choosing the title "Don't blink" took me awhile....seemed so 'permantent'.  lol
I chose "Don't blink.." cuz it's how my life feels right now~ like it's flying by right before my eyes. Every time I blink, another week has passed and I think, "It's garbage day again!? Didn't we just do this a couple days ago!?"  Too much blinking and the weeks turn to months, the months turn to years & I'm left thinking " did I get here!? How can we be approaching the end of the school year, when I just finished back to school shopping not that long ago!?" "Why am I getting a high school registration form!?  My oldest still has a couple years to go before HS....what are they thinking!?"  Turns out- they were IS next year.  I don't know how it happened, but I'm a full year behind reality!!  In 'my world', my kids are 1st, 4th, & 7th graders- when actually they're in 2nd, 5th, & 8th. :(    How could this happen!  How did I become the mom of 3 kids- one entering HS, one leaving elementary school, and my 'baby' will be 9 next year(last year in the single digits age wise!).   Seems like I just graduated not THAT long ago....seems like our 10yr reunion just passed- when really, our 20yr is one summer away!!  WHAT!!
I'm not sure why this happens.  How do we/can we slow it down?  Why does it seem the older we get- the faster time goes!?  We spend all this time wishing for days to be over(those days when kids are super crabby & you need a game plan to even know where you're supposed to be)~ but then those days seem to come more & more often, and we end up wishing the for the opposite~ for time to slow down & to live in the moment.  What do I want~ really!? 
I'd be bored as he** if all we did was sit around- the days would feel wasted like we weren't enjoying life to it's fullest.  I'd be lost without all those around me that make my life full.  I'm SO grateful for all the blessings in our lives & can't imagine life any different.......but I struggle with balance, and I think that's where the problem roots. 
'Balance' affects everything- but finding it is a challenge!! Eating, diet, family, friends, self- life.....find balance & you have the key.  I'm hoping to figure it out someday before I die....maybe this 'blogging' will help?   Not sure that adding another 'thing to do' to my list is going to slow anything down- but maybe if it somehow helps me understand things better, it'll be worth it? :)